The way you make me feel…

I know you don’t notice the way you make me feel. No one ever notices the way they make me feel. But I’m always in the wrong when I retaliate from the things I’ve been holding in. Let’s get into the way you make me feel though.

You make me feel like I can love again, but then you make me feel like I’m not capable of loving anyone but myself.

You make me feel like someone cares about me, but then you make me feel like I shouldn’t even feel like anyone gives a damn.

You make me feel like I care about you, but then you make me feel like I shouldn’t.

You make me feel like all I’m good for is sex, but then you say otherwise. Actions speak louder than words though.

You make me feel like shit, but then you make me feel special sometimes too. I wish you couldn’t make me feel anything though.

You make me feel like I want to help you love yourself more, but then you also turn around and make feel like giving up.

You make me feel like you’re using me just to fill whatever that void is you were talking about, but then you say you were only joking.

You make me feel like I can’t do this thing called life, but then you tell me I’m selfish so I don’t give up. We all know the famous line “Suicide is so selfish”.

You make me feel like no one will ever appreciate me for just being me, so I want to not show anyone else the real me. Though, I don’t know how to pretend anymore.

You make me feel happy, but you also make me feel sad. Really sad one of those sad moments you feel like you can’t get over.

Lastly, you make me feel like I love you, but damn I don’t want to love someone who confuses me the way you do. Or love someone who barely loves themselves. Or love someone who makes me feel like shit a lot of the time.

Thank you to all those who read this through the end, and for the person this is about… much love and thanks for your inspiration to write this post.

Much love,

Najiyyah.

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