I want to first apologize as I have lately lost a lot of interest in writing blogs, but I do want to continue to do them. I know I have support out there even if my support is not in the form of the people closest to me. Lets get into this blog now.
Letting go of something/someone has and probably always will be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I always put so much time and energy into these things that ultimately let me down. I read a tweet this morning that said “Avoid people who mess with your head. Avoid people who intentionally and repeatedly do and say things that they know upset you. Avoid people who expect you to prioritize them, but they never prioritize you. Avoid people who can’t and won’t apologize sincerely.” To me this quote means a lot because I tend to not avoid these people. I tend to attract these people into my life who live their lives thinking its normal to treat people like shit. I wish I wasn’t so loving sometimes. I wish I was able to still love myself while I love someone else. I let go of someone tonight because they were practically asking me to be in a predicament I don’t want to be in. For once in my life I didn’t settle for what someone wanted instead I did what I should have and thats want more for myself. Usually when I care about someone it’s hard for me to stop caring, but this time not caring has to happen in order for progress. It hurts that people always pick and choose when they want to be in my life and that I just sit and allow it. But I’m letting go of that also. I have been preaching about my #MEMISSION for some time now and now I’m really all about me. Letting go is a bittersweet feeling. But when people expect you to put up with their bullshit and stick around it gets tiring. I’m over people’s bullshit and fake caring. At this time my door to my life is closed. I am accepting zero new people. I’d rather walk this world alone than to tolerate less than what I deserve. Honestly I’m coming to an end with this blog I have nothing more to say. I am hurt.