Hello readers, I know it’s been some time since my last borderline blog, but I have been tasked by my therapist to write a blog about dysfunction and wise mind. If this is your first time reading my blog then let me take a moment to get you familiar with why I go to therapy. I am a Borderline patient. Meaning I suffer from the mental illness of Borderline Personality Disorder which defined by the National Institute of Mental Health is the following:
Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD) is a serious mental disorder marked by a pattern of ongoing instability in moods, behavior, self-image, and functioning. These experiences often result in impulsive actions and unstable relationships.
Alright now that you have that definition one of the criteria’s that I now suffer with more than the other’s is a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterised by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation. The interpersonal relationships are usually intense because of dysfunction. For me when something seems too normal it makes me feel weird or like something isn’t right. I’ve felt this way because the relationship that meant the most to me had a lot of dysfunction and it began to feel normal for me to have some sort of dysfunction. Having dysfunction is thinking solely with an emotional mind rather than a wise mind because I am ruled by my feelings of it being normal. As I said before in my blog Wise Mind: States of Mind, I challenge myself to push toward having a wise mind in every aspect because if I do this I will eventually no longer suffer from a pattern of unstable interpersonal relationships.
Every interpersonal relationship I’ve had in the past up until now I have never been able to think with a wise mind. More specifically anyone I’ve had any intimate type of relations with that I grew feelings for I ended up negating any facts, reason or logic. From now on I challenge myself to see the importance in both reason and emotion to see if that helps with my unstable and intense interpersonal relationships. When in a wise mind, dysfunction seems as though it won’t feel normal anymore because I’ll begin to start being comfortable with things being normal and not accepting things that cause negative reactions. On a journey to happiness, thinking with a wise mind will help me avoid dysfunction and stray away from people who exhibit dysfunctional mindsets.
Well I’ve come to a stopping point. I hope this blog made since to those reading and if not please comment, so I can explain it better. Thank you for reading.